I have given up at looking at the scale...because I know it will read the same and I will just sigh with disappointment. Why should I be disappointed...right? I think mentally, trim and slim means lower numbers on scale (in my head that's less than 170...don't ask where that number came from) and being a Flabulous person for such a long time those numbers become comforting and really affect your outlook on yourself. It's all mental drama, which is hard to remove when you are trying to reach certain goals. It is what it is and I am still very proud of where I am today...in comparison to where I was this same time last year. I was just hoping that by January 17, 2012, my one year anniversary of my journey from Flabulous to Fabulous,...I would be under that 170 mark. I still have a month to go...right?
Reality check. Here's the real deal. Why I am obsessed about being in that lower number scale. I know that, today, I am more fit and healthy than I have been most of my adult life. I am 42 years old but I feel as though I am in my 30s...and can even past for it...if not younger to some people.The other day...quite flattering actually...someone thought I was in my late 20s! Imagine that. I had to laugh. I have more stamina and I am exercising with greater intensity than I ever have...even doing boot camp with Manny's Fitness Program in Santa Barbara three days a week! I have gone from doing push-ups on my knees...barely doing 20 to 60+ regular push-ups, running 1.5 miles in less than 15 minutes (I could not even run the whole course the first time around), keeping up with my high intensity spin class, and gaining muscle with free weights. When I take off my shirt, I am actually happy to see what my body looks like. Not perfect by any means, but actually looking better than what it did last year...and I have muscles.
Reality check part deux...I am fitting into size 34s and I wear medium to large shirts. So why should I be disappointed. I shouldn't be disappointed is the point. This time last year, I was wearing XL-XXL shirts and size 40+ pants...so I should be proud of where I am. I sleep better, I look better, and I am healthier, so all in all that is a HUGE accomplishment. Who knew I could even lose the 50+ pounds? I sure didn't think I could do it and in reality weight loss and health was not even on my radar yet on 11-17-10...I was perfectly happy being flabulous and I didn't realize (or had a clue) that I really needed to make changes. What I am most proud of is my transformation was done on my own terms and my own will and hard work. My body transformation is my own work of art.
So what am I getting to? I guess what I am trying to say is this. DON'T BE TO HARD ON YOURSELF. Change does not happen instantly. It's an ongoing process. With weight loss it's about being consistent and doing what's right for your body...eating right, hydrating correctly, and exercising. THOSE ARE THE ONLY THREE THINGS YOU NEED TO GAUGE YOURSELF ON! Be proud of your accomplishments and don't let the scale get you down. Have a cheat day...but remember not to cheat yourself either by making excuses in reaching your goals. I still have 20 pounds to lose to reach my goal weight...but I also know that it's an ongoing process. If it takes my another year to remove the last 20 pounds than it will be another year...and that's okay. I like the new Percy that I see and I am going to do my damnedest not to go back to where I was a year ago.
Hopefully you are all happy with your own transformations and journey. Remember to celebrate your accomplishments and know that you are the only person who can determine your success!
Thanks for listening to my ramblings!
-Percy
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